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My Dearest Joel,
 
How have you been? I do not know if you still do read this space. I hope you have been well. I've battled sleepless nights, lost of appetite for days and a fever. There is still so much I want to say to you, so many questions I have unanswered. You wouldn't believe how much I'm reminded of you everyday. Places, things, songs, words, everything. I've let you go and I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. Something which no one else can ever understand. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. Thank you for all the great memories and everything we've shared together. I will always remember the first time I saw you, our conversations, our first date, the first time you held my hand, the time where we shared our first kiss, our first holiday, the places we visited. Remember The List I wrote you? I meant every single word in that and still do, I always will. Thank you for having let me into your life. Life works in mysterious ways and hey, who knows, our paths might cross again someday like how it did. I wish you well and pray you find love. You will always be in my thoughts and heart. Please keep safe and take care, especially in the coming months. I love you. Always have and always will. I'll be seeing you.

Vanessa

 

I know I am.